Exhausted

Busy day today. Family get together this morning at the baptism of my niece and nephew. Big lunch afterwards and then tea at the in laws. Overall was a nice day. Difficult to in some ways. Had a few people mention Noah and how sad they are for me. Which meant a lot they said something. Some people say nothing which can be worse. Depending on the day. Losing Noah is a huge part of my life. He is still my son. I don't want him to be ignored just because its painful and I miss him. I still love him and thinking of him still brings a warmth to my heart. Also held a few babies today. First time since Noah died. One of them is the same age that one of my babies would have been had I not miscarried. Thats always difficult. Seeing other peoples children the same age and just wondering what life would have been like if that baby had survived.

Its hard cos I miss my miscarried babies as much as Noah. Its just I have a name for Noah and I got to hold him. Doesn't mean I don't miss my other babies. As well as the photos for Noah that I got made, I also had ones done for my two miscarried babies.

(Thanks again to Carly for doing these photos for me)

Its hard knowing we have 3 children in heaven. But good knowing they are happy and safe and can miss out the pain of this world. But its hard for a mother to lose her children. Its not the way it should happen. And it doesn't matter how early you lost them. Its still a child you love dearly.

After Noah was born a family member gave us a 'Willow Tree' statue. It was a boy holding a heart. I've been given a few of those Willow Tree statues over the years and when I received my new one I put it up on top of the tv with all the others. I was surprised with what I saw. It was 6 people represented and it just looked like my family. Nigel and myself with baby Charlotte, Noah standing and watching over us and our two little angel babies next to him. Our beautiful family of 6.
I love how God puts together things like that for us. Little things to bless us. In ways we could never have imagined but are so special. Awesome.

God loves to remind me...

Have had a busy day today. Lots to organise and places to go. Didn't manage to go to all the places we wanted to today. Hate days like that. But God showed me some special things along the way.

Was feeling a bit sad again. Sorry for myself. Missing Noah. Longing for another baby. Realising that could never happen or be a long way away. Had to go and get a card for my niece and nephews baptism so went into a Christian bookstore to buy them one. Happened to just browse around the corner from the cards and discovered these:
 

 

 

I couldn't believe it. Keyrings and magnets with Kookaburra's on them with a sunrise and sunset. And not just that.. but the verse saying 'Be still and know that I am God' is one that was a big comfort to me during Noah's birth. And the other verse is from Samuel which is Noah's middle name. Amazing.

And then Nigel found this poster. We had to buy it and will put it up somewhere where we can see it and be reminded. Its just beautiful.

What a beautiful God we have. One who comforts us in our sadness. One who is faithful to us when we need his help. One who will never abandon us. One who doesn't forget the grief you feel, even after others have forgotten. One who died for us so we could be with him. So Noah could be with him.

A beautiful God.

Thank you for the reminder God.

I recently lost my son Noah. These are my favourite pictures that will forever remind me of him. They comfort me in my grief.

This is a necklace I got made in memory of Noah. The 3 birthstones in the middle signify 3 months.. January (conception), June (birth) and October (due date).

This is a photo that I ordered for Noah. He is free as a butterfly now.

Rainbows will always be a special reminder of our son Noah. Because of Noah in the bible and because a rainbow appeared the day before Noah was born. It was God's promise of faithfulness and love to us.

This photo was taken at the cemetery Noah was buried in. The rainbow was right over his grave. So special.

I will always think of Noah when I see a Kookaburra. We had one keep us company near our window during Noah's birth. He flew away when Noah was born.

A sweet woman named Carly writes babies names who have passed, in the sand at a beach during the sunset.  Sunsets have always been special to me. They are a reminder that God loves us. God loved us enough to give us Noah. Though He took him to heaven, we will always be thankful for that gift. Even though our time was so short with him. 

Mummy loves and misses you Noah xo

Time Flies

Just found my old blog after 4 years!!! Somehow managed to get back into it. Am lucky it sent me the password to my email address. Would never have remembered that one. Was a random password set for this blog only.

But I do like it so will keep it. Just must remember to come on here more often.

I think time has come for me to do some blogging again. This time though, not for a holiday. Just daily life as I walk along the path God has set for me.

Thanks for reading xo

Nearly home...

Hi there!

Many apologies for the lack of entries in my blog of late. We have had a bit of trouble getting time on the internet, well thats not technically true. We have had time on the net, but I haven't really been prepared to spend a huge amount of time on the net to get this blog done, as it meant less time doing other things like sightseeing and spending time with family in England. So really all I have been able to get out was one or two emails. So I apologise.

Below are a few photos from London, Norwich and the last one from Singapore.

(The London Eye)

(Big Ben and Parmilent House London)

(Left: Nigel and Amy at Trafalga Square)

(Right: Amy and Nigel with our nephews Ben and Jonah in the carriage of a small steam train we rode on)

(Castle Rising)

(This is a picture of a house in Norwich which over the years has become very crooked. Its so crooked that the owners have to buy specially made and shaped glass for the windows - see window far left at the top - as the original glass would have broken many times with the movement... crazy)

(Amy on one of the streets in Singapore - everything is very bright and colourful here)

Well this is probably my last blog from overseas... I shall probably do one last one about our trip when we get home on Monday. Thanks for reading and sharing these lovely memories with us!

Love Amy and Nigel

xoxo

Hi There Everyone

Once again Nigel and I have had another great few days on our trip so far. In Orlando so far we have gone to seaworld twice, Universal studios, swam with the manatees and gone to the outside of Wet n Wild (hehe we saw the line up and felt the heat and went..' ahh no' and went back to our hotel). We've spent a lovely day relaxing in our hotel pool and our room. Its so nice to have someone come in and tidy up your room and do your dishes etc. Will be hard coming home hehe. We've been very blessed with the weather here too. It should be more stormy than it is, and so far while we've been here its only been blue skies. God knows that I am frightened of storms, so I know he's had his hand on us.. and I'm very thankful to him for that!

Well I thought I'd add a few more photos of the Grand Canyon in cos that was incredible..

(A photo of the canyon while in the helicopter about to head down into it)

(A photo of the Hoover dam taken while in the plane)

(This is one of the beautiful manatees in Seaworld. I don't know what his real name is but I've nicknamed him Kenny. After my Manatee toy I bought that day! hehe)

(We saw quite an entertaining, if a little corny, show at seaworld with the killer whales which cornyness aside was quite impressive with all the tricks and stunts they do with the whales)

Well we've only been in the USA 1 week now, and anytime we receive any kind of excitement from americans at the fact we are australian we are constantly being told how much they love the Crocodile dundee movies.. hehe. Oh dear. Our hotel staff member this morning couldn't stop quoting the movie to us. He had both movies on dvd and watched them again yesterday. oh dear. He wanted to know if Aboriginal people really were like they were depicted int he movie and if we had seen any.

The other funny thing that happening in Las Vegas was when we went to a resturant and our waiter was very excited to hear we were from Adelaide because thats where Alby Mangels was from and this guy had seen all of Alby's movies and really wanted to come to Adelaide. He was very funny, I think he was lucky that people our age even knew who Alby Mangels was.. lucky for me I watched many Alby Mangels stuff as a kid so knew what he was talking about.. hehe thanks mum n dad! hehe.

Anyway.. thats about it for now. Will make another post at some point when we have internet access again.. we're off to New York tomorrow and are not sure how accessible the internet will be where we are staying. We'll soon find out I guess.

Take Care and thanks to everyone for their prayers. It has been noticed and much appreciated!

Amy and Nigel

(Us at M&M world in Las Vegas.. hehe!)

Tired...

Hi Everyone,

This will be short today as I am soo tired. Below are some photos of our last couple of days, not much I know, but we've had 3 hours sleep in 2 days, so we're tired and need our rest. We will put up more photos later in the week. Enjoy the photos!

Love Amy

xoxo

Photo of the Las Vegas strip from
the top of the Stratesphere hotel tower


Photo of the Grand Canyon


Photo of my dear Manatees
(They're soo cute!)